I am an artist. I often find
myself fascinated with interior designing and fashionable clothing. I am
collector of accessories. I see the emotions in an abstract. I see the beauty
in every weird item. I see the message in many arts.
I am a writer. I love to imagine.
I imagine so vivid that I can even speak to the character in my imagination. I
love to write stories in my mind. I so wanted to get a pen and get started with
an obra, yet I often forget my pen.
I am an engineer. Near to being an artist yet far from being a
writer. Why in this field?
I am good at chemistry and math.
Math problems are fun to deal with. Chemistry? It is where I found myself so
superior, superior enough to succeed.
But in every quite moments in my
life, in every break time I have, I find myself unsatisfied with what I am
doing. And I often wonder, why was I born in such a place?
Let us face it- I often say to
myself. Engineering is a field where people will not starve. You have the
knowledge, the skills, and the power- you will standout. Maybe I did. But deep
inside, I have abandoned the artist in me. The writer I used to be, is no
longer existing.
If the world is revolving around the Sun, then the Sun must have been a
ball of Money.
Whoever (and for what reason they
have) created money, they are the reason why Manny, I mean many are happy, and
why majority is suffering.
Money
-the
basis of caste system
-the
reason why we are considered as developing country
-the
reason behind human trafficking, drug dealing, and slandering
-the
reason for the every tears of every orphan
-the
reason of many unhappiness
A lot of people may not be aware
of the fact that money is the primary reason behind broken dreams and undeveloped
talents. If there is indeed hell and heaven, the basis of heaven and hell are
the sins committed while people are still on Earth. And why would I ever forget
the 7 deadly sins? The acronym PALEGAS was taught to every Christian.
PRIDE
ANGER
LUST
ENVY
GREED/Gluttony
AVARICE
SLOTH
GREED- (as to my opinion) is the
sin that standout. Why not? Who does not want
it all? I know people who do not. The people who are suffering. People from
Africa who are victims of caste system (they just want fair treatment). People
who have lost their children, caused by natural phenomenon, murder, human
trafficking, and a lot more injustices (they just want their child be back,
which is impossible, so they are starving for justice). The people who are
sick, and their love ones (they wish nothing but good health).
And who are the people who do want it all? List them down,
you’ll run out of paper.
In the weighing scale of life,
what we NEED is much much much heavier than what we WANT. That is a basic fact.
Everyone must prioritize what they need. But on the other side, our emotional
aspect tells the otherwise. We tend to go to the path where our WANTS will be
fulfilled. Let us be honest to our self. We need shelter, but we want a big
house. A house with five bedrooms and a pool will be enough. We need
food, but we want to taste all the local delicacies in every country. We need clothing, but we want to own a walk-in closet containing our branded clothes, bags and shoes. We need education,
everyone does, but few are given the opportunities, lucky are the kids who can
go to their desired schools.
In the big picture of life, there
is a big misconception between what people need and want. Is it I need it,
because I want it? Or is it I want it, because I need it?
People commit sins because that
is the only way to get the things that they need. And people prefer to commit
sin just to attain what they want.
To end this crap, being in this
track is where I should really be. In due time, after doing what I needed to do,
I’ll start with I have been wanting to standout at.
Prandtl
12/07/12
